Things dun go well, as expected! Haix...damn angry & disappointed at myself!!!
I'm childish, unreasonable, nt sensible, every time make ppl angry, i like wat jus do nve really cre bout hw he feel, when angry i can jus ignore him totally & dun even tok 2 him...compare 2 frens & him i think i treat frens more beta den him. I can b myself 2ward frens play around hving fun ,but 2 him i feeelin bit stress cos i think nid 2 b more sensible more mature! Can hve fun wif him no probs. talk rubbish but I'm always like tis always play around,wanna change it tks time! Know tat i cant b a kids always...but if can choose i rather b a kid den adult, as kid no stress dun nid 2 think & troub so much things! 2 ya i noe i'm treatin ya veri unfair i tryin nt 2 le! As ya say wanna b wif mi forever if i'm still nt sensible is veri hard, if its really hard jus let go ba...for all tis while think gt 2,3 yrs le ba ya been lettin mi alot,giv in 2 mi alots, tryin 2 make mi happy...i appreciate it alots! i'm willin 2 change but it tks time...If ya really cant tk it dun hesitate jus leave mi dare myself! I'm serious!!! it been hard on ya for tis long...tolerate mi, my temper my attitude...i dunnno y i say tis mb jus dun wanna ya so 辛苦 ba...Mb ya shld find a beta gal tat wont like tis treat ya ba.......I dun hve other intension jus sayin out hw i feel....I wanna b myself but i cant b so selfish 2wards ya...haix! Sry ya present didn't went tat smoothly as i expected...i'm veri disapointed & angry at myself...luv ya always.

I'M VERY SORRY